
"I DON'T WANT TO DIE YOUNG!" cries my wife on the stressful night of 9 April 2009.
That was the night before she is scheduled to do a 'Colonoscopy' at the local hospital the next morning. Her fear, CANCER.
Although I have read and understand much of the religious scriptures and articles about death and dying, the fear of my own death is non-existent to be frank, but the fear of knowing that someone close to you is dying, is beyond imagination.
Being suspicious of the dreadful disease overtaking a loved one's life and knowing that the result will be make known to me the next day after the medical examination, is like falling off the cliff somewhere in the Grand Canyon.
Amidst the crying and fear that she can't hold back as an ordinary person, I know that I must not show my fear and worry at that time. It will definitely make the situation out of control. The only thing that I can do is to tell her not to worry so much as we are all guessing on the result and that we should be brave to face it if the worst scenario comes.
I always believe that God treats me good and He will not be taking any of my loved ones away while I'm still alive. I rejoice in living my fullest by being together with my family members wherever we are. Enjoying life is not about being super-rich or being an extraordinary man. Keep things as simple as possible is the key.
Trying to be sophisticated and chasing the wind is not my cup of tea. Remember, the most extraordinary person is the simplest down to earth person.
A simple outing, a light meal, being at home with the family members, those are actually a very meaningful life to me.
The next day:
After going through the medical examination the morning after with me being present in the room looking at the monitor while the fibre optic camera is moving deeper into her colon is really very stressful indeed. Nothing else in the world matters other than wanting the test to be over soonest possible.
The result: Negative.
Thank God! My prayer was answered. I need not speak more.